diannaks123

yeah so tonight i went to youth group in the first time in FOREVER. it was amazing to see everyone again, i forgot just how much i love all those people.

only two bad things:

1~there is absolutely NO way i'll be able to afford the mission trip to Costa Rico

2~tonight was the "sex talk" woohoo fun.

i really need them back in my life...and i think i'll make it stick this time

=]

tasty, tasty evil.  and i don't think i'll ever have it again. no...not ever. damn i hate being sick.

so my tickets for the AP tour came yesterday...i am sooooo stoked!!!

and i finally tracked down the issue of AP Magazine that i desired...and i am quite happy =]

damn. now i have to try and focus on schoolwork...haha riiiiight. don't make me laugh.

53 more days! and my first real concert too...=]

i am stoked. and scheming.

bamboozle 2009. may 2nd and 3rd.

i will be there. both days. end of story. even if i have to sell my first born child and run away from home.

there are only 2 things i can think of that could possibly make this line up better. billy idol, and blink 182.

wow, my typing seems so calm and collected. in actuality, i am literally going insane right now.

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so today i realized just how important music is to me. i lost my ipod. actually, i'm pretty sure someone stole it, and has by now sold it to buy drugs. (lord sometimes i hate my school.) but yeah.  i mean i know that it's only a thing, and not even a necessity, and that there are people in the world who don't even have enough to eat, but i am going INSANE without it!!! i literally spent an hour and a half searching my school for it, but i've officially given up on that. it's gone, i just know it. so now i'm moving on, and i figured out it will take me approximately 10 babysitting jobs to by a 120G classic, which would be absolutely wonderful and considerably nicer than my last one.

but really, it's not just the ipod missing that upsets me, it's not having music. i think it's kind of one of those things i took for granted before. wake up-listen to music. walk to school-listen to music. gym class-listen to music. walk home-listen to music. do homework-listen to music. surf mindlessly on the interweb-listen to music. fall asleep-listen to music.  if i still had my stereo and cds i think i'd be able to survive. but seeing as i moved on into the digital music era, my missing ipod pretty much means a complete lack of music. except for when i'm sitting at the computer, which can't be too often or my mom will flip. not to mention that my computer's such a dinosaur that i would always have to delete the music files as soon as they were on my ipod. thus, there is no music on my computer to even listen to.

now i'm depressed. and rather upset with myself for being so darn materialistic, but nonetheless i am missing my tragically misplaced ipod terribly. i am literally going to lose my mind if this goes on for too long. i guess i'll hold onto that tiny glimmer of hope that someone in my school has a heart, and turned my beloved Xander into the lost and found. i doubt it though.

i have no idea how i'll wake up in the morning...or even fall asleep tonight for that matter...

i don't understand. everyone's so extreme about valentine's day. they either completely love it, or dread it every year. i for one am rather apathetic. i really don't care either way. it's great to be with your loved one, but what makes this day so special? if you're in love today shouldn't it be the same every other day of the year? and if you're alone why should this day be any different?

the flowers i got were beautiful, and now my whole room smells absolutely lovely.  too bad they were from my dad. maybe i'm actually more pathetic than apathetic...

so many things in life..they say it's just like riding a bike, you'll never forget.

well what if you can't fucking ride a bike?!?

i sat down and looked at my life...and i realized the reason i can't ride a bike. i'm scared. yeah, i'm scared of riding a bike. and it's all because of a fricking untied shoe in 4th grade. fell off my Razor scooter (soo many memories of that wonderfully blue toy) and broke my two front teeth. first week of school. and the ridiculously stupid insurance company wouldn't let me get caps until when? oh right, the first week of summer vacation. holy crow that year sucked. anyway....i'm afraid of falling.    and maybe not only off of bikes/scooters/rollerblades? hmmm...perhaps this says more about my life than i'd originally imagined.

and hey, why ride a bike when you can just take a walk? see so much more of the world around you.